I had several reasons for visiting the GP on Friday.
- Find out what might be causing my increased libido. I wanted a GP opinion. Sure I had the urologist's opinion ("Spasms!") but I know from MS experience that specialists only see their problem, not the whole picture. For that you need your GP. The urologist might be right, I just didn't want to miss a general cause in favor of the specific.
- Get a prescription for preemptive antibiotics to ward off any UTIs as they are beginning.
- Get a referral to an allergist to eventually see if I really am allergic to Penicillin, opening up my antibiotic options in the future.
- Get a signature on a TeddyJ form. TeddyJ wants everyone back three days a week starting in January. TeddyJ doesn't know that I am required to avoid my husband for a week after contact with the outside world. They say health exceptions will be granted. I was there to get a doctor's signature on the exception form.
The form, the prescription, and and the referral were easy. Regarding the libido, the doctor speculated that my thyroid might be off.
She also mentioned my brother died recently.
"Why would that make me horny?" I wondered, and some articles say it definitely does. You want to connect with people, physically or emotionally, and while usually sex drive decreases during grief, sometimes it does the opposite.
I did bury him at the height of my horniness and it does seem to have gone down since then. On the other hand, none of it seemed psychological, instead, it was so brutally physical in such an alien way that it seemed like it had to be caused by a compressed nerve or a brain lesion (or, as suggested, Spasms).
I suppose the grief is a contender, giving the weepiness those articles provoked, plus the grief-dodging I do every day. (I focus on the happiness I feel now that he's gone, and ignoring any sadness.)
I guess if the lust is from the grief, then now that it's acknowledged it should let up.
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One hour later. Nope, not letting up.
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