Well, I thought the next draft of the book was going to be easy, compared to erecting the scaffold and hanging all the plot points. But now viewed as a whole, the novel is a funhouse mirror of my injured inner child, and she is not pretty to look at. Then again, I'm on the other side of the keyboard, so if anyone sees it, they won't see me eye to eye, much less po9nt at me and say, "You have some whiny abandonment issues, get over it."
Awful people write awful books, awful, venal, transparent books. (The Bridges of Madison County.) How do you hide yourself, or do you? And I know it's strange that I am asking this on a blog where I don't hide myself. Maybe that's the thing - because I'm putting characters through my biggest issues I feel guilty becuase I'm dodging what I want to say directly.
Maybe I need to write up a paragraph of the personal issues I want to paint with my broad brush and heavy hand. Then I won't feel guilty or transparent because then the book will seem subtle. Well, that's step one, anyway.