I see many parallels between the “loose” cenote painting from yesterday and Jerry’s Novel.
In both cases, I’ve had trouble creating because I have too much freedom. With the cenote it became harder and harder because I didn’t want to be representational. But if I can paint what I like, then what is my goal? What am I aiming for?
Similarly, with Jerry’s novel, I have nothing to aim for. All I know is that I want it to be a certain way (better, looser), but I have no clue what the end result should look like. Some say I should just sit down and write, but I really can’t without having it a plan of where it will end up. I’ve been writing the juicier scenes that I know I want, but I really feel I need to craft the whole plot before I start. Otherwise - no end game.
So I’ve spent some time considering the plot. I want some percentage romance and some percentage criminal heist. I want a novel of manners married to The Sting. I want Jane Eyre minus Bertha Mason after she and Mr. Rochester have been married four years and then she meets Mr. Darcy.
At least that’s an endgame. It’s a very strange endgame but it’s where I’m headed.