Shortly before Dad died, he and Mom were talking about Mom retiring. He was an old hand at the retirement game, and he told her, "Every day, do two things: get dressed and have something to look forward to."
I need to follow that advice. Well, not the first part. I don't think anyone needs to get dressed every day. Pajamas are fine if you're staying in for the weekend. Screw the first part.
As for the second part? I think that's what I've been missing lately: something to look forward to.
I had the wedding in Detroit to look forward to, but that didn't happen because of Gary's back. I was looking forward to a big vacation, but we still need to get Gary's lungs sorted out. In addition, Gary's feeling tentative about finances, so he's imposed a spending cap for any potential vacation which is half of what I'd budgeted as the low-end vacation alternative.
I think it was pretty clear I had too broad a canvas for the vacation plans. Now that I have some limitations, I can focus.
I've got tickets printed out for Ingrid Michaelson at the Pageant, and you know my favorite Hiro Sushi is right there by the Pageant. That's mid-July, just a few weeks away. We've got VIP tickets for the Chinese Lantern Exhibit at the Botanical Gardens. That'll need to wait till next week - temperature's getting into the triple digits this week.
But of course, I've had those Ingrid Michaelson tickets for months and they haven't sustained me. What WILL sustain me is the tickets my beloved TeddyJ deposited on my desk this morning. Seems I won a drawing at work and Gary and I get to go to the "Green" seats at Busch Stadium in a few weeks. We aren't directly behind the batter, but we will have foul balls flying 90 mph at our faces. And paid parking. And waiters bringing us hot dogs. And air conditioning in the lounge. This sustains me.
Really, I think that's why I've been buying all these shoes. I need to look forward to those shoeboxes showing up on my porch. I don't need the shoes; I need at least four things to look forward to.